Saturday, December 5, 2009

my dancing girls...

Today was Whitney and Kelsey's first dance recital rehearsal. Tomorrow is their first recital. I was so proud and they love it especially Whitney.
I am thankful for though those who work so hard to put this production and I think these kids are amazing.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

feeling very productive today...

I cant believe i got all my laundry done folded and put away!!!! Its been months since that has happened now to keep it managed. wow that is a job in its self. I actaully was able to get aq couple blankets and such washed that needed it desparately. Its a great feeling to get evertyhing done plus some extra chores in there today. I have however been learning a lot of patience in all this because i used to be a mad women trying to get it done and i missed so many moments with my kids because i was focused on the work and not paying attention to the little things. i am learning to slow down a little bit.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

another homeschool decision

We made the decision to pull whitney from school and homeschool her as well. We were blessed with the ciriculum for switched on schoolhouse. I love having my girl home so i can pour into her and her sister instead of others and other influences that are less than i would want for her. I love the facts that i can reconnect with her cuz i feel as though we have drifted a little because of outside influences and such. I have a lot of work ahead of me and even more self dicsipline on my part as far discipline and scheduling. I have gotten better but still have room for improvement. I do have to say that i am excited about this new chapter......

Monday, November 23, 2009

Oh thank you Jesus

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Praise Him

*update* Baby Boy Joshua David was born at at about 5pm 5lbs 11oz. 19in long and about 2 weeks early. Mom, Dad and Baby are all doing wonderful. *

My other cousin Bethany is currently at Genesys Hospital Dilated to 7 and contractions 3 min apart( as of about 12:30). So please keep her lifted up in prayer. Aunt Wendy would be so proud right now and i know that she is watching from above for her 1st grandbaby. I will keep you posted.

My cousin Leah had her sweet little baby Girl this morning about 7am. 8lb 10oz 21 inches Name Alora Kate

Oh and i thought this was cool When i was talking to my mom on facebook she pointed out this fact:

today is the 5th in bible numbers it means grace!!!!!! yes it does and with two new babies.

I also got this post on Facebook today as well. Prayer request for a dear friend: Here is the post

lift up Connor Scott in prayer. He is on his way to emergency. He said his chest was hurting, collapsed and started turning blue. This sweet little man is 4 years old. We are praying Connor.....

soon after his momma Rachael posted::::

update. connor is smiling and being goofy...has a bruise starting on his chest...he said he ran into table at this point we are not sure if he did internal damage under his chest...keep prayers coming.

We are still praying for him and like I said above Grace. I will give updates when i get them.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

attention scrapbookers

This is my moms site. She is really really talented. She has done all of my books for me and I love every one of them.

check her out..............

Love this!!!!

I heard this song today for the first time and I loved it. It really spoke to me.

It lifted me up cuz I do not know what i did to my back but I am in a lot of pain and I have been for a couple of weeks but today has been especially bad.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Wrap the Homeless

I look forward to this every year. I love going and blessing others and this is a great opportunity to do so and get the whole family involved. It is really eye-opening to see the hardship in each face and realize that each one has a story and more importantly is loved by God. The tears are so real, the thank yous sincere and the hugs so warm. The smiles of hope resignates with every hello and smile given. honestly i dont know who was blessed more us or them. I think that there were over 400 people that stood outside waiting for coats, clothes, toiletries and such. My heart was so burdened and really i with everything i am going through i still have so much to be thankful for.

Monday, October 19, 2009

missing trying to understand

tomorrow will be one month since my aunt passed away and i cannot tell you how much we all miss her and almost in shock that she is gone. We know that she is completely healed and having some great conversation and such with those who have gone on before her. I cant help but question the timing and why did God allowed her to endure the pain and cancer that took her to be with him. I know that it we may never know and His ways far supersede our understanding. i just really want to understand cuz quite honestly i dont and i find myself questioning and praying why?????

Noah funny.........

My mom posted this video on facebook.

I had seen it before but didn't recognize it at first but i watched it with Kelsey and Noah. It actually scared Kelsey somewhat and I had to explain to them that when Jesus comes He is going to take his to heaven and tried explain to them that in heaven we will have a mansion streets made of gold and all sorts of things like that. Of course Noah was so excited. He asked me yesterday
Mom in Godland is God gold. which i said no. then he asked Mom in Godland can i ask God if i can go to walmart and buy gold toys? Too funny.

Thursday, October 15, 2009


I have been feeling a little overwhelmed today with some issues tugging at my heart. I came across this video and well enough said!!!!!!!

Monday, October 12, 2009


Pastor has been talking and teaching about dreaming and purpose. I guess this is where all the past few posts have stem from kinda. I have been thinking a lot lately about purpose and such.
one of the things that pastor said that really stuck with me is this phrase.

If it kills you, if it thrills you, then it fills you!!!! meaning that if the thing breaks your heart but also gives you joy to do it then it is most likely your calling. I have been about this for me and my life asking for a revelation. i starting jotting some things down and i seriously think i have it.

I dont want to go to too much info yet because i am still seeking God on the fullness of this dream but I will give you a hint of where my heart is. it has too do with young girls and boys seeking their true identity and self image.
this video is a little glimpse.........


I just seen this post on my friend's blog. It really spoke to me in light of all the chaos i am feeling. I have been soul searching and praying about my purpose and God's plan for me. I have been almost consumed by it. I think this is why i was so touched by this. Big revelation for me. Thanks Kim.


Lord you are so cool. I love how he reminds me that He is in control and that He Loves me and understands what we are going through.
I get a weekly email with verses for everyday of the week.....
this they are

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5-6

I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Jeremiah 29:11

Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is -- his good, pleasing, and perfect will.

Romans 12:2

How great you are, O Sovereign Lord! There is no one like you, and there is no God but you, as we have heard with our own ears.

2 Samuel 7:22

The Lord confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant known to them. My eyes are ever on the Lord, for only he will release my feet from the snare.

Psalm 25:14-15

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

Psalm 27:14

I think it is so cool and it lines right up what Pastor has been preaching about!!!!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

one day,,,,,,,

today the kids and i (Terry had to work:() attended the one day event. click here for website. It was so nice to take the focus off our problems and focus on others. I seriously mad made more grateful for all i have. Yes times are tough but i am not starving I have a warm house, clean water to drink and much more. It was really neat to see all the people and generosity that was displayed today.

Monday, September 28, 2009

lots to do....

Seems like my calendar is filling up fast with events this month. I truly feel blessed to be able to give my time in many of theses events.
Kelsey's birthday on the 8th
a lia sophia party on the 9th
one day ----outreach to dig two wells in kenya africa and Kelseys birthday party on the 10th
the one life walk ----- outreach to take a stand against human sex traffiking
on the 17 for more info general info on sex traffiking
wrap the homeless---outreach to love on the homeless in Flint and give them much needed items like clothes, blankets, toiletries and hope. on the 24th
a nice relaxing spa party on the 24th as well.
trunk or treat on the the 30th. the Freedom center and the Rock church teaming up this year to show the community how loved they are on a night that is typically used not to glorify the Lord.

I am very excited about these events and really hope that in some small way i can make a difference in a life For His Glory.

The song the i have had on my heart all day is Give me yours eyes by Brandon Heath.
the song goes like this:

Look down from a broken sky
Traced out by the city lights
My world from a mile high
Best seat in the house tonight

Touch down on the cold black top
Hold on for the sudden stop
Breath in the familiar shock
Of confusion and chaos
All those people going somewhere
Why have I never cared

Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach
Give me you heart for the ones forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

Step out on a busy street
See a girl and our eyes meet
Does her best to smile at me
To hide what's underneath
There's a man just to her right
Black suit and a bright red tie
Too ashamed to tell his wife
He's out of work, He's buying time


Ive been here a million times
A couple of million eyes
Just move and pass me by
I swear I never thought that I was wrong
I need a second glance
Give me a second chance
To see the way youve seen the people all along

The chorus really is what i have been singing all day and is my prayer for the month.

Sunday, September 27, 2009


Ok so my friend is having a little contest and giving away a $20 dollar gift certificate. She is amazing in the coupon stuff and loves to share her knowledge so do me a favor visit her site the contest post specifically is
just thought you might be interested.

Sunday, September 20, 2009


We all think of words like Love, faith,goodness, joy, peace, hope, mercy and many words like them as nouns or adjectives. but they are matter of fact and more importantly VERBS!!!!!
Actions, conscious choices.

In Loving Memory........

Tonight we lost our wonderful Aunt Wendy, but we are thankful that she is pain free and is sitting at the feet of Jesus.

We were blessed to have her and thankful for all the smiles, the laughs and the Love of Jesus she showed everyone.

Love and Miss you!!!!!!!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

this looks very educational

Creation our Foundation

Sunday, September 20, 2009 - Wednesday, September 23, 2009
See details

Date and Time

September 20, 9:00 & 11:00 AM, 6:00 PM
September 21, 7:00 PM
September 22, 7:00 PM
September 23, 7:00 PM

Official Press Release

Pastor Tim Forsthoff is pleased to announce that Dr. Grady S. McMurtry, Biblical Scientific Creationist, will be speaking on Sunday through Wednesday, September 20, 21, 22, and 23, 2009. Dr. McMurtry will speak in Sunday services at 9:00 a.m., 11:00 a.m. and 6:00 p.m.; and, each week night at 7:00 p.m.

Dr. McMurtry is a recognized international speaker on the subject of creation vs. evolution, both from a biblical viewpoint as well as that of secular science. He has an entertaining and humorous style of presenting scientific fact and Bible truths. His insights into the events of the past will stir your spirit and affirm in your heart the truth about the biblical record of creation, the Flood and Man.

Dr. McMurtry has credentials as a scientist, an expert school board witness and a visiting professor on school, college and university campuses around the world. All persons, Jr. High through Adult, will be captivated by his grasp of the facts, open style and love for the Lord.

Dr. McMurtry was an evolutionist for twenty years prior to being convinced of the scientific foundation for the creation viewpoint. Dr. McMurtry addresses this issue on the basis of science and contends for the truth of the Biblical account of creation and its tremendous relevance to our lives. The topics in this series are: Foundations; The Waters Cleaved; Why I Believe In A Young Creation; Absolutely No Truth to Global Warming; and, Dino-Mania.

“The Creation Bookstore” will also be available. It’s so hard to know the best books on such a wide range of subjects that are suitable for each age group. This is your opportunity to buy! Home-schoolers looking for curriculum will want to review the titles on the book and tape tables.

Pastor Forsthoff invites and encourages the community to attend this life changing series on Creation Our Foundation.

taken from

trailer available on this website as well

busy busy......

this week...
Noah starts school

Haley continues homeschooling she loves it but i'm not so sure. I am having a hard time adjusting. I think it more that i am not good with schedules and so i am being stretched in that area.

Tuesday morning bible study......woohoo

youth Wednesday night

i need to get my financial aid other things taken care for my schooling.

I also am trying to keep up on the housework.

I know i have forgotten a lot but i think you get the hint.

Praying for supernatural stregth and grace to get everything done.

truths to live by.....

what great reminders.......

I want this on my wall

I would love to put this on my wall in the living room somehow.

Dance like no one is watching,
Sing like no one is listening,
Love like you have never been hurt before,
Live like heaven begins tomorrow.

I saw this on a picture at the christian bookstore and it just really has got me thinking. I love the picture and i'm thinking Christmas maybe hint hint....maybe.

I think that it just a good reminder that life is short and that we need to take every minute seriously. We are not promised tomorrow but his his grace sufficient to get us from moment to moment. I just hope that i can start breaking away from my little shell and live by these inspiring words.

Friday, August 28, 2009


well i pretty much have everything unpacked and we are settling into a routine again. we have a packed weekend. tomorrow is my cousins open baby shower and Sunday is Terry's birthday. School starts on the 8th and we have plenty of orientations and open houses to attend to in the next week. We also are thinking about homeschooling Haley. She is absolutely begging us to. I am really praying for wisdom in this. I am also working on getting back to working with youth on Wednesdays. I really miss them.

Thursday, August 27, 2009


wow what a couple of weeks. I have to say that we have seriously had a stressful couple of weeks and really if it was a test of some sort i failed miserably and yet it has got me thinking about some things that i don't feel comfortable about sharing here at this time. We did end up moving and I really love it. We are not in the boonies anymore yea! The kids are really loving it too. Still unpacking and purging.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

a little word...

Acts 17:25-29 (Amplified Bible)

25Neither is He served by human hands, as though He lacked anything, for it is He Himself Whogives life and breath and all things to all [people].

26And He made from one [common origin, one source, one blood] all nations of men to settle on the face of the earth, having definitely determined [their] allotted periods of time and the fixed boundaries of their habitation (their settlements, lands, and abodes),

27So that they should seek God, in the hope that they might feel after Him and find Him, although He is not far from each one of us.

28For in Him we live and move and have our being; as even some of your [own] poets have said, For we are also His offspring.

29Since then we are God's offspring, we ought not to suppose that Deity (the Godhead) is like gold or silver or stone, [of the nature of] a representation by human art and imagination, or anything constructed or invented.

Saturday, August 8, 2009


God is so good. The last couple of days have been challenging but I am not worried which is atypical for me. I am trusting He has everything under control. I came across a song that touched my heart and reminded my just How loved we are in Gods eyes.

He also reminded me that my name Amy means Beloved. What a bonus.


wow friday has been a whirlwind. lots of things that i cannot go into her but has had me questioning a few things and testing my trust in people. It has also been day that God has asked me ok now you say you trust me so trust me. I ask you to pray for my family as we head through a little uncertainty and a season of trusting God when things are changing. Terry got the call that he is going to be full time at is new job with ins. after 3 months. Yea God. I asking God for a babysitting job and believing he has it waitng for me in due time.

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.
- Matthew 7:7-8 (see also verses 9 -12)

Friday, August 7, 2009

Friday already?

Wow. I can not believe how fast this week has flown by. its actually been great though. God is at work and I am feel a new sense of Joy that have felt in a while. Terry is back to work (yea God)and things are still a little chaotic but i am getting a handle on that. I have waking up very early the last 3 days which if anyone knows me i am not a morning person. but t i have got whole bunch of work done during time and had som e awesome prayer and worship time as well. I am working on some specific things like getting school clothes and supplies for the kids. All5 are going this year, ouch! Even though Terry is back to work we have not received a paycheck from them yet and are still are on unemployment so when he does get paid guess what the landlord is going to be very happy lol. If anyone knows of any good garage sales or has any ideas for getting the kids ready for school. Please let me know. God has started Blessing us in this area so I know that He has a plan. We are also having a garage with a friend on HI-Land trail off owen rd in Linden Aug 21 - 22 if anyone is interested. Also the girls are going to camp that week too. Praying that God becomes even bigger to them during that time. This is Haleys first year going, so be praying that she does get homesick or changes her mind

I received this flyer and thought i would pass it along if anyone is interested.

Monday, July 27, 2009

I posted this a while back and i think i need to remind myself that i am a mom because God has given me the responsibility. I have been questioning the reason why lately because i am just cant seem to get a handle on a couple of things and i don't understand why i cant get out of this funk. i really feel guilty but i cant wait for school to start because as much as I love my kids the summer is getting be long and they are bored. We are all ready for the change and schedules again.

MOM - Job Description
POSITION:Mother, Mom, Mama, Mommy
JOB DESCRIPTION:Long term, team players needed, for challenging permanent work in an, often chaotic environment. Candidates must possess excellent communication and organizational skills and be willing to work variable hours, which will include evenings and weekends and frequent 24 hour shifts on call. Some overnight travel required, including trips to primitive camping sites on rainy weekends and endless sports tournaments in far away cities. Travel expenses not reimbursed. Extensive courier duties also required.
RESPONSIBILITIES:The rest of your life. Must be willing to be hated, at least temporarily, until someone needs $5. Must be willing to bite tongue repeatedly. Also, must possess the physical stamina of a pack mule and be able to go from zero to 60 mph in three seconds flat in case, this time, the screams from the backyard are not someone just crying wolf. Must be willing to face stimulating technical challenges, such as small gadget repair, mysteriously sluggish toilets and stuck zippers. Must screen phone calls, maintain calendars and coordinate production of multiple homework projects. Must have ability to plan and organize social gatherings for clients of all ages and mental outlooks. Must be willing to be indispensable one minute, an embarrassment the next. Must handle assembly and product safety testing of a half million cheap, plastic toys, and battery operated devices. Must always hope for the best but be prepared for the worst. Must assume final, complete accountability for the quality of the end product. Responsibilities also include floor maintenance and janitorial work throughout the facility.
POSSIBILITY FOR ADVANCEMENT AND PROMOTION:Virtually none. Your job is to remain in the same position for years, without complaining, constantly retraining and updating your skills, so that those in your charge can ultimately surpass you
PREVIOUS EXPERIENCE:None required unfortunately. On-the-job training offered on a continually exhausting basis.
WAGES AND COMPENSATION:Get this! You pay them! Offering frequent raises and bonuses. A balloon payment is due when they turn 18 because of the assumption that college will help them become financially independent. When you die, you give them whatever is left. The oddest thing about this reverse-salary scheme is that you actually enjoy it and this wish you could only do more.
BENEFITS:While no health or dental insurance, no pension, no tuition reimbursement, no paid holidays and no stock options are offered; this job supplies limitless opportunities for personal growth and free hugs for life if you play your cards right.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

what a week!!!!

I feel like i do nothing but go go go. I have had something to do everyday and yesterday i had to do it with a Migraine ugh! We have had a lot going on starting with Terry being laid off again and trying to figure out some financial stuff. what a headache. I have been going through some stuff on my own and i think i am actually going get with a friend to pray with. Thank You B. We are working some things out. Terry was hire into a trucking job yesterday and accepted into a mentor- ship program at our church. Things are starting to look up again. We do have some things to look forward to. Nick turns 13 on the 3rd, the girls are going to camp, Russell Family reunion, Terry's birthday (Aug 30) and then back to school.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009


My wonderful Miss Whitney deiced to help me today by loading the dishwasher and starting it for me. Well she put regular soap in not dishwasher soap. lol,

Tuesday, July 14, 2009


I have been really praying lately and asking God for clarity and vision for my purpose and where i am supposed to be focusing my time. I feel very strongly that He wants me to work on balancing my time w/ family and continue working w/ the Refined ministry along with my husband. I also have a heart for those who are hurting due to the economy and children who just need to be loved. I said earlier that I will be returning to school at Spring Arbor University In Feb. I believe that is His way giving me time to work the Balance and my focus before adding anymore to my schedule. His Grace amazes me so.I am also continuing to work out some behavior issues with Mr. N. I have been seeking some counsel and would like to take a Growing Kids gods way course or even take on a mentor who has been through the course. I am also praying that I connect with an e-group (bible study group) again. i have been to a couple of them through our church but I didn't really feel like i belonged. i think I am just in a weird place right now and I am turning my focus off my surroundings and back to Christ where they should be.


A friend posted this on her blog and i thought i would share because it gave me chills.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Where does the time go.

Wow i cant believe that the summer is half over. There has been a lot going on at the McDonnell house. We started the summer out w/ one vehicle but were blessed with a free van from a friend that only cost about $300 to fix. Yea God. Terry is still working though he is only getting 2 or 3 days a week now. he has a very good chance at getting into Waste Management.( out of hundreds of applicants for 1 position Terry is one of 4 being considered.)We are praying that he is Blessed with the job. We also were able to go to the Big ticket Festival in Gaylord. had some wonderful fellowship friends and family and not to mention all of the performances. Way too cool cant wait for next year. The kids and I are taking it easy and working on some behavior issues and academics. I am actually looking for a job and praying for provision for the right job. I have been going to school online and have been struggling with either should go to school or work. Well online education is not for me. I went today and talked with Spring Arbor university and God is so good because i will be able to work and and go to school on this program. and its a Christian College. Yea God. i am so excited right now.
Looking forward to looking for the right job and spending the summer w/ my family.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009


My friend Rachel is having a contest. Hurry, it ends on Friday! She's giving away her cute necklaces that she makes!

This is the one I'd choose if I win.
her store site
The Vintage lane

Monday, June 1, 2009

Cool provsion testimony.....

My aunt Mary is a missionary to the Philippines. She runs an orphanage or a foster home there and takes care of children whose parents throw them away because of poverty or whatever reason. I think she has 16 kids at the moment and if she is not able to find them adoptive families then she adopts them herself. very cool. anyway she has been here in the states the last couple months visiting my aunt who has and is being healed from terminal cancer. We had some really awesome family time. Well time came on Friday for her to go back to her home and work. she was accompanied by my mom, aunt Wendy and aunt Lana. They got to the baggage checking and found out her carry on was too big, but luckily my aunt had a smalling bag or something she could use. She simply emptied the big bag of the necessities into her carry on and checked the other bag in. (your allowed pieces on international flights for free.) While all that was going on the guy at the ticket counter asked her why she was going to the Philippines? Aunt Mary simply said that she was a missionary. The ticket guy said that was giving my aunts all passes so they could sit with her while she boarded the plane. very cool. so anyway while they were waiting to board the man came to my aunt and asked her for her boarding pass. She handed the pass to him and he went to his computer and did a couple things and said here i changed your seat. (she was in the very back of the plane not comfy at all) that's when they realized that he had moved her to first class. wow she was catered to on the 14 hour flight. Furhtermore when it came time for the final goodbyes, The man gave them all the time they needed, he told them to take their time because is the one who closes the door. yet another Yea God moment. After my aunt got on the plane, my mom thanked the man for his generosity. The man said that something about my aunt mary touched his heart. Wow anyway my mom and aunts proceeding to tell the man her testimony. The man was really taken back by her. God is so awesome.

summer employnent

We are getting to the point where i almost am forced to get a job. I dont like it, I want to be home with the kids. So I have been praying about it and I think that i have the solution. Thank you God. I have advetised on facebook and craigslist for childcare in my home.This way i can help those moms out in the summer and still be with my kids. I have two possible leads already so hopefully they pan out.

here is my ad:::
Hi I am a stay at home mom looking to earn a supplement income this summer. I am willing to give your child a loving environment with Christian values in a non-smoking, pet free home. I have have 12+ years experience with kids. Please feel free to to call Amy @ 810-208-0737 or 810-936-1153

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Big girl!!!!!

I finally buckled and let Kelseygetr her ears pierced.She was amazing. She really didnt even flinch.

Saturday, May 16, 2009


Nathan C. DeLaRosa
3/8/96 -5/16/96

It was 13 years ago that My step brother tradgically taken in a car accident along with two of his friends. It seems just like yesterday and I really miss him. he was so funny and gave the best hugs. He was loved and his lofe cut way to short in our eyes but God had different plans for him and although i still dont understand the whys, i trust that His ways are higher than mine. I know that as i reflect I realize how precious life is and you never know when you will take your last breath so I cannot take anything for granted and God has big plans for me even though they not clear at the moment I am going to live my life to the fullest because that is way i can honor Nate. I never would have dreamed that he would have left us the way he did but he did and all i can do is miss him and remember the laughs and the love.

There are two songs that have really come to me today remembering Nate....

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

desperate prayer needed..........

Our nation needs prayer and this is why. I didnt vote for him but i pray God grabs a hold of his Heart!!!!!

im inspired!!!!

this video not only boke me but really just gave me some inspiration

This weekend really just changed a lot of things for me. The womens conference at church was absolutely amazing. I can not even explain in words how I have felt since Sunday. I am trying to really be more focused on God and change things in me that really need to be changed. This is very hard and since the theme of the conference was fearless I guess that is where i am starting.
Casey Gibbons (our wonderful guest Speaker)called us Brave-hearted chics!! (i think that should be our next t-shirt Hint-Hint) I really want to thank all who worked so hard to make this so special. I know that satan got some teeth kicked in because wow the warfare has started. i have noticed it in some subtle and not so subtle ways. One of them has been with our finances. I normally am really worried and well crabby i guess but now I am at peace and I know that God has something for us. I am also really praying that have some revelation and kidof figure out what my purpose is and how and my gifts truly are. i know where my heart is and i am really just praying i can figure it all out.

I also would like to ask for prayer for some revelation and guidance with parenting issues. I really want set up some schedules and figure out some ideas for consquences and chore chart ideas. If anyone has some wisdom they can depart please comment.

Oh i almost forgot, i have beenbattling with a.d.d severly and I have a real hard time trying to concentrate on anything. I was put on ritilin. I have not started it because I am kinda nervous about side effects and suff.

Thursday, May 7, 2009


my daughter Kelsey loves the song Reason by Hoobastank(i think that is the name and spelling) I took video of her tonight.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

good for her....

Its about time someone speaks.......


My daughter is my little worrier. today the brought home a paper that talked about a man who tried to possibly pick up a couple young girls. This person has had a couple different incidents that have been reported in the last couple of weeks. Scary. Anyway i commend the school for bringing it to parents attention but is there a better way because really it really scared my girls. I did try to talk with them openly and explianed that are safe and that God is watching over them. i also gave clear instruction on what to do if they are approahed by a stranger but i also really want them feel secure. We prayed and hopefully iput some fears to rest but Haley is so sensitive. i really need pray peace over her.

Feeling a little better...

I am still struggling with a few things but I have taken steps to work on the stress and emotion i am feeling. I have taken a month off from youth and replaced it with Bible Study, I have gone back to my friend Brigids Bible study. Actually both studies are on the same subject but are very different in the dynamics and really like both. I have also gone back to singing on the Worship team at church and wow i really missed that more than i thought. It is so good to be back. The book study we are in is called Dont act like a christian just be one. I am not a reader but the parts i read have really hit home.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

more feelings..

i said earlier that i have been depressed. I have been really trying to think and figure out why i have feeling so crummy lately. Last night at Women's ministry i left early because i wasn't feeling good and now i realize that it was really just attack from the enemy because i really needed to be there. I decided to go to Bible Study this morning and I found out that last night was all about Unity. They said that there were testimonies of people feeling like they felt as if they were shunned and did feel welcome. I think a light went off because I have felt like a fish out of water for years. I was the one picked on in school constantly, I have never felt like i have ever really had a best friend, I have tried to fit in to different groups. I have gone to a couple different egroups at church and have tried different other groups and have felt like i fit in. I have really felt shunned. I hear about people getting together , calling and texting all the time. I have felt a part of a group in a long time. I think that has been part of problem lately. I also want to really just be used and transparent in my walk. I feel like every time I make commitment to make changes I something happens I screw up or circumstances make it hard for me to make changes. I take 1 step forward and two steps back. I guess I just feel burned out. I almost dont even want to try. The only reason I have gone to church is beacause of the kids. I am asking for your prayer, I am searching for healing in this area and for direction.

Saturday, April 11, 2009


I had the bright idea to rearrange the girls bedroom and do some reorganozing. I dont know exactly when i did it but i pulled the muscles in my lower back. Friday I was pretty much hurting all day and finally took some motrin. It wore off at the Worship Blast and I was really just wanting to go home but ai really just stayed cuz i was having a good time. I am still very sore today but maybe i will get a good massage later!!!!

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Yummy Ice Cream Cake Recipe

I really like watching the Duggar Family on TV. They talked about recipe and I thought I would try it. It was really YUMMY. Here it is:

Makes a 9”x 13” Pan
24 Ice cream sandwiches
8 oz. Cool Whip™
1 Hershey’s™ chocolate syrup bottle
1 Smuckers™ caramel syrup bottle
2 king size Butterfinger™ candy bars chopped up
1st layer -12 ice cream sandwiches
2nd – half of whipped cream
3rd - half of Butterfinger™ bars, Squeeze 1/2 of caramel &
chocolate over that.
4th - rest of ice cream sandwiches
5th – Cool Whip™
6th - rest of Butterfinger™, caramel & chocolate
You can freeze this and eat as desired! Yummy! Yummy!


I have been really feeling depressed and just kindof numb lately, Im not sure why but I done feel like I am doing anything important. Maybe I let my mind wander to nuch but I feel like i cant do anything right in my husband, my family or anyones eyes. I even have just not even wanted to go to church. I heard this song today and I really like the words. It explains pretty much how i feel.


Just wanted to thank everyone for your prayers. Terry got a job Wednesday. He is working for Bordines Nursery. It is less money, seasonal and there is no insurance but I am not camplaining because it is an incaome and where God has placed him at the moment.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

my cousin

My cousin David is absolutely hilarious. We bicker like brother and sister but its more fun than anything. He does some imitations of people like forrest gump, Joel Osteen, he also does an australian and southern accent. We took a video of him tonight because we just didnt have much else to do.


Just wanted to say thank you for the prayers. Terry was approved for unemployment and has an interview on Mon. We are just praying that we are doing what God wants and not going through anything in our own strength.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009


Today has really been a challenge. I feel like i want to run away and hide. I cant go into detail here but I would appreciate some prayer for my family an especially my marriage.

Monday, March 30, 2009

encouraging Word

my dear friend Sharon sends encouragings things quite a bit and I really liked this one today so I thought I would share. Thanks Sharon

From everlasting to everlasting you are God.
Psalm 90:2

There are two things we can count on, the first is that
everything changes, the second is, that God never
Every day sooo much changes in our lives, anyone who
has children has first hand knowledge of that!
The weather is always changing and our moods certainly change.
I like to think of each day as an opportunity to change, grow and better
God, however, Never changes! He is the constant we can count on
in our lives, He is the Alpha and the Omega, He is the consistent thing
when everything else is continually changing that we can always rely on, He is steadfast and true, our solid foundation.
I take much comfort in that realization.
What ever your need is, if you seek him he will guide you.
He is calm and patient, the consummate gentleman.
He will not bully his way into helping you, He is forever ready and
I think of all the things he has brought me through and it nearly
overwhelms me with gratitude.
In these troubled times we need to use every available option, and there is none more powerful than the great I AM.
Don't try to handle things in your own strength, remember it is only
belief in God until you are tested, Then it is FAITH!
He can be anything or anyone you need, whether it is a spouse, a father, a counselor, a friend or just who he is Our Lord.
Reach out, his hand is already extended to you!

Sunday, March 29, 2009

With the events which have come upon us this weekend i have been trying to put things into perspective and pray about what God has for us. these verses have come to me.

“I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)”

“Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

Trust in the Lord with all your heart; and don't lean on your own understanding. In all things acknowledge him, and he shall direct your way. [Proverbs 3:5, 6]”

I feel like I am just walking around a mountain and i am not learning what i am being taught or God is testing us for something big and until pass the test we will keep in the dessert, i have so much going through my head I am overwhelming myself and I need to just let it all out. So i guess God is going to get an earful tonight! lol

desperate prayer needed

I would really appreciate your prayers because terry was let go very unexpected from his job on Friday. We would be really freaking out but we know we have good God and know that He has something He wants to teach us and something better for us. We are thankful for our business and while it is picking up we need to still have another income. If anyone has an opportunity for either of us we would greatful. Terry had a cdl a and some handyman experience. I have clerical experience and would love to baysit. If you would like to know more about our business and help getting healthy please email me or check out our website I also started a blog which will have a lot of useful info.
thanks so much Amy

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Wordless Wednesday

Guilty Pleasure
Coupons rock reg 3.49 1.00 coupon that doubled 1.49 tot.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Just silly

my friend Danielle and I went out on Sat and got some primping done. Pedicures and some shopping at target. Ive n ever had a pedicure before. I think im gonna make it a habit. maybe. but we had fun at target being silly with the sun glasses.


This last fall Terry blessed someone with his time and muscles and such and in return they blessed us this weekend with a playscape for the kids. I was amazed an d the kids were very excited. This will give them something to do this summer.

Sunday, March 22, 2009


I love my Noah and yet i find myself very frustrated with this sweet little boy. He turned 4 Feb. 1 and i think a switch was turned on him to be extremely difficult to deal with.

He is sweeet kid when nhes not pouring soap or multipurpose cleaner on the floor just to get a reaction out of me. I am n ot sure what God is teaching me through him but if asked for patience at all i think i get the picture. lol I came across this poem and thought it fit.

Raising Boys
(Roberta I. Teague)
I scrub the wall of fingerprints,Pick up the mounds of clothes.I sweep the dirt that shoes track in-Wish I could use a hose!
Meals are served from dawn to dark,Dirty dishes crowd the sink.Just when they're washed and put away-Everyone wants a drink!
The washer pulls the dirty grimeFrom pants worn thin and patched.They look so very neat and clean-Yuck, look what the pockets hatched!
Broken bones and bloody knees,I should have been a nurse.I take it all in shaky stride-Just grateful it's not worse!
Screams and shouts and argumentsTest the keeping of my cool.
A soothing bath is ecstasy,A reward at the end of my rope.Raising boys isn't really bad-But first I must wash the soap!
A rose can say I Love You,Orchids can enthrall;But a weed bouquet in a chubby fist,Oh my, that says it all!

Thursday, March 19, 2009


I am thinking about sending this into a magazine or something.

I only wish i could know she is thinking about.

The many faces of Noah.....

Upside Down Face

OH face

yell face

camera shy face

stick out your tongue face

why mom face

im gunno get you face

sad face

peek a boo face

funny face

busy busy busy

Wow i feel like i never stop. I have done the housework, Terry is gone in Grand Rapids this week and we went to see Terrys mom last weekend. Today poor Noah got 5 shots today. poor little guy. I did wonderful tough. He didnt even cry from the first three. just the second two and it wasnt even that bad. The nurse was so impressed with him she gave him three prizes for being so brave. I took him to Walmart as promised to get something special. Terry gets back tonite and i cant wait. Saturday I am going to take a much needed moms day out.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009


I got the kids pictures taken at the womens ministry funrasier. these are too awesome!!!

Nick Jonas?

Noah has benn hanging with is sister a little too much. He announced this morning (very out the blue) that he is not Noah anymore because He is now Nick Jonas because he likes to sing. Too funny.

Thursday, March 5, 2009


I really think i have a new favorite show or least close to favorite. The show is 18 kids and counting. I love watching the Duggars. I especially love watching what an example they are and the fact that they are not afraid to live and show their Faith.

sounding off.

Ok i have seen and heard a lot of the controversy over the Bachelor. I have to say in the beginning i thought he was a great and all but in the end well lets just say I lost all the respect i had for him. He said he had to break up with Melissa the way he did. Not true. He proposed to her and he did not have to do that either. If he was unsure after dumping Molly then he should have just picked and took things slow not Propose. He made his choices. Every one of them. I think he should have privately broke it off with her. He could have explained how he felt and why he felt the way did and announced the break up and then brought the other girl on and went from there. He was irresponsible and i my heart goes out to Melissa.

hers an excerpt:

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Thanks Jessica...

I was reading Jessica Dietzals blog and discovered this photography blog and it is great. Thank you for very much Jessica for sharing. Oh and I absolutely love that pic of Lillie.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Toucheed my heart.

Last night i attended our monthly ladies Ministry meeting at church. I really look forward to it every month because I really am blown away every month. This month was no different. I have been very stressed out and feeling a lot of unexplained hurt and heartache. The subject last night was Bitter root judgements and expectations. The light bulb went off and i told myself that i was ok and figured i would study that a little bit and did not really take it seriously enough. At the end of the night i was sitting there just kindof wanting to leave but i something was not letting me. Finally a friend got a up and gave a word and finally broke and raised my hand at the invitation of prayer. After quite a few crocidile tears I feel like I am empowered and encouraged and I have a long road of growth ahead of me but I am excited to get started.

Here is a video that was played loaded with encouragement:

Two of my favorite songs!!!!

Sunday, March 1, 2009


Ok i know ive been slacking...
I have a few updates....
1. We moved. It was very stressful but we have settled in quite nicely and the kids really like it here so far. I like the fact that we have the laundry room on the main floor. lol
2. We are still waiting on our tax return. I wish that i had more patience for this but i dont. I just want to get some things paid off.
3. I still going to school and i have 7 page paper to write by tomorrow. grrrr. I am not a writer.
4. We are still working on potty traing Noah and his behavior. I would like to go through Growing Kids Gods way very soon. God really has been dealing with me on this.
5. I have been learning a lot about myself in the last couple of weeks. Some good some not so good. I am praying about a few things and i really am just trying to get a grip on a few personal issues.
Prayer requests:
A friend is going through stressful time.
My aunt is battling cancer and is getting weaker day by day. She is a Believer and we are just praying for peace.
We are also continuing in prayer for the Jawhari Family and that Randa will return home safe.

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Monday, February 16, 2009

My mom sent me this and i think it is a real awesome message to all those who have lost so much last week in our community. It s also a good reminder to us who who needs a constant encouragement .
Way to go Logan!!!!

Friday, February 13, 2009

sad and disappointed....

My heart is hurting right now and I really dont know where to go but up. We are being tested and i really dont think i am passing i just going to feeling overwhelmed and upset. My flesh wants to give up hide in my bed and get lost in my tv. We were supposed to move this weekend and were put under the impression that our refund would be deposited today so we could move tomorrow. Well apperently the govt has a four day weekend and we wont have the deposit until tuesday. This pushes the move back to next saturday. i know that God has a plan and all. I am just questiong if the plan we made to move was what we are supposed to do.

I also have a have heart for Randa Jawhari and the families who lost the homes in the fenton apt fire.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

please help...

my dear friend Diana's sister is missing. The family is natually very concerned for her well being and are praying for her safe return. please jion us in praying for Randa's safety and her reurn home to the family that loves her and peace for her family.

Randa Jawhari
age 42 100lbs 5'2"

We are also having a prayer vigil tonite for her at The Freedom Center in Fenton at 7:30.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Kelsey and her tooth!!!

Kelsey lost her first tooth last night. She was so excited. SHe has the tooth right next to it that is almost ready to come out too. Dr Anderson told her today that if she loses that one she can suck spagetti nooldes through the hole. She thought that was really cool so as soon as it comes i gues we are having spagetti!!!! yea.

Wordless Wednesday.....

Thank God for coupons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, February 9, 2009

busy and getting busier......

This weekend is the big move. We plan to move saturday, yes on valentines day and on my birthday (sunday) I will be unpacking. Please pray that everything goes as planned and we have good weather. We also have to get a set of bunkbeds and washer and dryer. If anyone knows of a reasonable set of either of these things please let me know. We also have a couple private things we are praying about that i will tell you about later.

Friday, February 6, 2009

I have been very busy lately and overwhelmed. I have been totally going on my own strenth not Gods. I am learning to give things up and leave them at the cross where they belong. i have had a song that has really been a source of strength.

Tenth Avenue North - By Your Side
From the album Over And Underneath

Why are you striving these days?
Why are you trying to earn grace?
Why are you crying?
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love?
Why are you still searching?
As if I'm not enough?
To where will you go child,
Tell me where will you run?
To where will you run?

Cause I'll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
Please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands, at my side
They swallowed the grave, on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life


Here at my side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
Please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
And I, I love you
And I want you to know
That I, I'll love you


Lyrics may not be reproduced without permission from the publisher.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009


Sunday pastor preched the best and i was very encouraging.. I think a lot of people really needed it. To hear it go to I know that with everything going on here i have been more than overwhelmed.
here are a few scriptures that have encouraged me this week.
Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up. --James 4:10
Our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. --Ephesians 6:12-13
God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship him in spirit and in truth. --John 4:24
Sitting down, Jesus called the twelve and said, "If anyone wants to be first, he must be the very last, and the servant of all." --Mark 9:35
Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. --Ephesians 4:2
You are forgiving and good, O Lord, abounding in love to all who call on you. Psalm 86:5
Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. --Deuteronomy 6:4-5
Hope you are encouraged as well;)

Wordless Wednesday!!!!!!!!

Diva Whitney!!!

Happy Birthday Haley!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday my beautiful Baby girl!!!!!!

9 years old!!!! Where does the time go!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

changes are coming.

We have made some big decisions recently. We are moving. We cannot afford this house anymore and as much as we hate it we have made the decision to downsize. This also means that home we have found is in a new school district and as much as i dislike the decision i am moving the kids to linden schools. our landlord does not want us to leave and to be perfectly honest i am not sure how i feel either. I am kanda excited about the change but I want to know that it is Gods will. I know we cannot stay hereand this is the only door that has opened. We have made financial mistakes before, BIG ones, and we are really tying to be careful. We cannot live like this anymore we really need to cut expenses and this is a big way. i REALLY JUST WANT TO BE SURE. I ask you to pray for wisdom and provision.

Wordless Wednesday.....

Sunday, January 18, 2009

my week...........

i blogged earlier about being alone for the week. well I survived lol but it was a challenge. i woke up Monday with the worse migrain i have ever had. I could not lift my head lift my head off the pillow. I ended up calling a babysitter and a friend to help me get the kids from school. Thank you Sarah, Lori and Audrey. i was really hoping to feel better on tuesday but I felt worse. i called another friend(Thanks Becky) to help get the kids to school and then called the Doctor. I got an appiontment that afternoon and worked up the strength to go. I was given imitrex and it did help take the edge off a so i could get dinner and a couple things done but I really was not feeling well. i shut off all the lights and tvs and turned on the worship at 8pm and we all crawled in my bed and took a good nights rest. (at least the kids did)I decided to keep Noah and Kelsey home with me on Wednesday since i still did not feel good. My mom came and helped and i also went to the chiropractor and that really made a world of difference to. I was able to go to youth. although that was loud and I underestimated how good i felt by th time it was all over I went home and crashed. wow what a week so far. my mom and I had good time on thursday even though i was still very weak. I was able to get the kids home and clean up the house. I was really excited just to go to Bible Study. and to my surprise Terry came home Thursday Night!!!!!!!!!!!!

a little part of my story....

I just had to write apaper about why i decided to go back to school. In it i gave a part of my testimony and i thought i would share it.

I am continually asking myself why I bother going to school because I do not have the best record of accomplishment. I was an average student in high school. I could have been better but I did not apply myself. I was to busy fighting off bullies and trying to fit in anywhere I could. I regret it now because I really would have had a better self-image and maybe I could have a better choice of colleges. Of course I had I not made the choice I did I would not have met husband and would not have had the experiences that make me who I am today.

After High School, I went to Baker College and decided that I was going to reinvent myself even though I really had no idea how or what I wanted to do. I really just wanted out of my parent’s house and live my life somehow. I started the party lifestyle and I went to class because I had to. Once again, I did not apply myself. After feeling like I had nothing or no one to live for I gave up and started partying with whoever happened to cross my path at that moment. This leads me to how I met my husband. He was a gang leader and I happened to be at a party where he was only I was with a friend of his. Eventually we ended up as a couple lived an interesting life in the gang. To make a long story short my parents found out about my life and his and tried an intervention. It partially worked and not only for me but for him too. We both got out of the lifestyle and got clean. We were married and started going to church where we both have devoted our lives. We now have five children and they are five reasons I am going back to school.

Another motivation for returning to school is that I have learned through the years many lessons about life and have learned that the trials I have faced and the choices I have made are now the backbone of whom I am. They are necessary for the future in my chosen career and my compassion for those I serve. As a Christian, I am called to love the unlovely and serve others before I serve myself. I have a passion for children and teenagers. I have a heart for children who do not have anyone to turn to and who feel they have no hope. I am going to school to get my degree in social work so I can help those in need. My ultimate dream is to work within the foster care and adoption system or with at risk teens. I can volunteer in these areas but to make it my work is where my heart is and would be a dream come true. I can not achieve this dream unless I go to school.

I am determined to use the experiences and skills I have learned to succeed in my dreams and further my education. I have the support of my family and a God given desire to pursue my dream. I am prepared to use my time wisely and make necessary sacrifices to achieve my goals. I intend to study and show my kids the value of what an education can do for you.

This is just a small part of of our story. God has been so good and merciful and I thank Him for all he has Done and is doing still.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

on my own.....

well starting tomorrow i am on my own for the week. Terry is going to be in Grand Rapids for the week. Im not sure i am ready for that because i am very overwhelmed trying to figure out things and keeping up with my busy family. I am joining the club of wives that have traveling husbands. any tips?