Saturday, October 25, 2008

confessions.......

ok so i have to get a few things off my my chest. and i only do so because i need the prayers of my readers and i just need to be real about my feelings. I want you to know this is very general and has happened over my lifetime and i do still struggle with this today. Thank God that i can know that i dont have to impress him. Just love Him.
I know that i dont have the best personality, i have a had a lot of issues this last year , tend to say the wrong things and have horrible timing. I have always been the person who has the ignore me, unpopular or tease me target on my head. I feel like have a lot of friends but i also feel like i am just a face in the crowd and if I leave town or something no one would notice or miss me. I have tried to fit into so many different "cliques" only to feel like the outsider. I have felt snubbed on different occasions and just clearly left out. I was always the unpopular one and the one teased about everything. I hung out with people a lot older or younger than myself, because im not sure why but i was just not accepted by my own piers. I am not trying to be negative, I just thought i would be real in figuring out who i really am and what my real purpose is. I have been praying through a lot of issues in my life in trying to get closer to Jesus. This one of my bigger ones i am working on. Thanks for listening.

3 comments:

Tami said...

I'm with you. I'm grateful Jesus doesn't want us to put on a show or feel like we need to fit in. He takes us where we are.
Love ya- Tami

becky said...

I know how you feel. please remember that it is the enemy pouring salt in an open would. your DADDY loves you and He shows your faithful brothers and sisters the beauty of YOU, inside and out. we do love you and it's a hard road you walk, being a mom in this anti-woman world. the feminism movement has done more damage to women than all the years before 'women's lib'. you are building a legacy that will show itself in 7-13(or more if you have more kids!) years. some difficult times are beind and I have the full faith and confidence that many more beautiful, amazing adventures await you! for you are beautiful and amazing. I love you, my sister in Christ. no one can take HIM and HIS LOVE away from you!

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