confessions.......

ok so i have to get a few things off my my chest. and i only do so because i need the prayers of my readers and i just need to be real about my feelings. I want you to know this is very general and has happened over my lifetime and i do still struggle with this today. Thank God that i can know that i dont have to impress him. Just love Him.
I know that i dont have the best personality, i have a had a lot of issues this last year , tend to say the wrong things and have horrible timing. I have always been the person who has the ignore me, unpopular or tease me target on my head. I feel like have a lot of friends but i also feel like i am just a face in the crowd and if I leave town or something no one would notice or miss me. I have tried to fit into so many different "cliques" only to feel like the outsider. I have felt snubbed on different occasions and just clearly left out. I was always the unpopular one and the one teased about everything. I hung out with people a lot older or younger than myself, because im not sure why but i was just not accepted by my own piers. I am not trying to be negative, I just thought i would be real in figuring out who i really am and what my real purpose is. I have been praying through a lot of issues in my life in trying to get closer to Jesus. This one of my bigger ones i am working on. Thanks for listening.